The GFE Dilemma
October 10, 2009For those of you unfamiliar with the term, “GFE” stands for GirlFriend Experience. Essentially this means that the man wants someone who is warm and friendly – just like a girlfriend – versus a wham-bam-thank-you-maam, in and out, see ya later, type of experience.
I’m a GFE kind of girl by nature. I try to be friendly to every client I meet whether they’re to my liking or not. There’s also a natural orientation toward friendship that happens with some of those that you see regularly or that you always have fun with when you’re together. Over the course of 5 years it’s not hard to understand how you can really get to know someone!
This morning a regular of mine called me…he was on his way to a meeting in the city and he wanted to know if he could come by to give me an orgasm. That’s it! Just wanted the pleasure of going down on me (which I assure him repeatedly is MY pleasure, because he has truly mastered the art of going down on a woman).
Unfortunately we couldn’t time a meeting, but before he got off the phone he told me how much he loved me – truly loved me – and that he couldn’t wait to see me again. He’s not the first to say things like that.
Do I love him back? I have affection for him…I would be sad if anything bad were to happen to him…but the fact is, I would move on. I enjoy his company – like i enjoy the company of many of my regulars – but it’s not love.
I love myself and I love my life. I would love to have a partner someday as well. But I don’t live with a void like my clients do. I don’t seek out love and sex and affection because I’m not getting it from my spouse or partner. There’s nothing to transfer onto anyone else.
I don’t think I could ever be more of a PSE than a GFE (PSE = Porn Star Experience); or even just one of those girls who fakes it all the way and then has her clothes back on before she’s even finished pretending to orgasm. But I guess there’s something to be said for maintaining a professional distance.
I’m flattered by my clients’ gentle thoughts and feelings…I just don’t want them to feel wasted on the wrong woman. Everyone deserves real happiness…not just fleeting romance.
